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one_step_closer · 10-02-2018, 08:18 PM

Thanks.

I feel like everything is crumbling around me and I can't cope with much more. My brother text me today apologising for not texting yesterday because he's been very busy (on his trip) and isn't feeling great either. I asked what's up that he's not feeling great and he said it's tiring and travelling also reminds him that he doesn't find enjoyment in anything and it's hard to be around a bustle of excited people and not feel excited yourself. I'm so worried about him. Absolutely nothing I'm doing is helping him. I need to force myself to think about what rituals I need to be doing and to find something risky to do to myself. I didn't sleep much last night so my mind energy is even lower than usual making it feel like an extra hard task to focus on what to do from here. I need to push myself anyway even if I'm tired because this is my brother's well being that's on the line. I need to stop being selfish.

10-02-2018, 08:18 PM	#665
one_step_closer The Shadow of the Day Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Scotland	Thanks. I feel like everything is crumbling around me and I can't cope with much more. My brother text me today apologising for not texting yesterday because he's been very busy (on his trip) and isn't feeling great either. I asked what's up that he's not feeling great and he said it's tiring and travelling also reminds him that he doesn't find enjoyment in anything and it's hard to be around a bustle of excited people and not feel excited yourself. I'm so worried about him. Absolutely nothing I'm doing is helping him. I need to force myself to think about what rituals I need to be doing and to find something risky to do to myself. I didn't sleep much last night so my mind energy is even lower than usual making it feel like an extra hard task to focus on what to do from here. I need to push myself anyway even if I'm tired because this is my brother's well being that's on the line. I need to stop being selfish.
	I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much. Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass. You didn't come this far just to come this far.