im guessing youre sick of me but yeah i didnt want to read this and not reply so here i am...
Im really glad that youre proud of yourself, i think thats a huge step, to recognise that youre doing well. when we first spoke you were cutting everyday and everything was seeming hard. Things still are hard i know, but it is a huge achievement how far youve come.
Now that youre not cutting, it doesnt make it all go away, but it means you can deal with the real issues under why you do it, because thats part of the problem. You really have taken massive steps and im well proud of you *huge hugs*
i dont think youre moving backwards, but maybe youre just standing still for a bit. Just because things are moving forwards like they were at first doesnt mean theyre going back to being bad. SOme days will be harder than others, and then you could have a good week where loads of stuff goes right, but then the next week feels like your going backwards because its staying the same, but really youre not going backwards, youre maintaining where you are which is a majorly good thing.
remember how strong you are, and i know you can get thru this and feel ok. you can survive without it because you are. If the thought of cutting is helping u atm, thats ok. i know its hard when its always there but at least youre not doing it, so thats definate progress. maybe when you want to cut, write some stuff down, maybe in red pen so its not in your head, so its out somewhere.
sorry for the essay :/ hope a little bit of it made sense
love you xxxx
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