Thank you so, so much.
A close friend of my Mum's died just under an hour ago. I feel so bad. I'm terribly sad for my Mum. I feel incredibly guilty that I am complaining about lost sleep and there are two teenagers who lost their Mum less that 60 minutes ago.
Mum popped in to drop something off and hugged me and said "I just need you to get some sleep." I held it together until she left, but am now in flood of tears. I shouldn't be worrying her. I know she's scared of the lack of sleep making me unwell. So am I. I just don't know what to do.
I saw CC this morning and she's going to talk to psychiatrist and see what he says. She was hoping to to it today, but she did say it might be tomorrow, so hopefully she'll phone me at some point. I feel sick where I'm so tired. Was retching earlier, as gross as that is. Ugh. I've got lavender going in my diffuser. At least it smells nice, even if it doesn't help me sleep.
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