I have little motivation to phone crisis, and maybe not enough words. I'll be safe anyway because I usually am and I'm sick of being safe. I'm not going to confront my friend because I am trying to make things as easy as possible for her while she isn't well. I try to help her out when she is well too. I'm a burden. A disease. A ball of negative energy that is polluting the world. I should stop posting here too. I don't even know what I want from this. It's selfish of me to post here and maybe people here want to tell me harsh truths about how bad I am but don't. I should disappear from everyones life. I don't need a treatment team or friends or family. No, scratch that, the main point is that they don't need me.
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