Thank you so much. It is so helpful that someone gets it. I worry so much that I'm being really ridiculous, but you have completely validated how I'm feeling. :)
I did play the piano a bit yesterday. It's been a long time, so I'm getting used to it again. It's good to focus me. I spent some PIP on a shiatsu back massager, so have been using that to relieve some of the tension in my shoulders. I am so uptight.
I took half a.diazepam tonight. Psychiatrist has given me plenty, but I feel odd taking them, so try for the lowest dose possible that works. It's helped a bit and I am tired. Breathe. Just breathe.
I'm upping the dose every 7 days for two more weeks, so I've got at least a month of this ahead. CC has said she'll see me weekly during the transition. I'm seeing her tomorrow. I usually feel really awkward about appointments and don't feel I need them, but I could really do with a chat at the moment. It feels really needy and pathetic.
I'm in a good position for this to be ok. Still scared though. I am a stuck record.
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