Hi
I feel ashamed to post this but I am really struggling and I need some support or advice or something.
As I put in previous post, I am now seeing boyfriend. I should be happy because he is patient and gentle and tells me I'm wonderful, but the thing is this...
everytime he gets close I just feel so triggered and memories of past abuse come flooding back. I have been crying myself to sleep for the past few days and screaming in the night without realising it. When my friend from back home came to visit me over the weekend for my birthday she wondered what had happened to me. It took all my strength not to self harm.
I just dont know how I can have a relationship when one minute I want him and the next minute I just reject him and start acting hysterical. I really really dont know why he sticks by me.
