You sound very lonely, I'm sorry you're feeling so disheartened. I understand the feeling of thinking that you can't be happy or other people will be unhappy, what in particular strengthens this belief for you? How do you get on with your room mates? Are there any of them you could try to start confiding in a little? It's difficult when you don't feel you have someone close to you in life, we all need valued human contact. I know that it's often not easy to find someone who you can trust and get on well with though.
I don't think it's childish to have stuffed animals, we all have different ways we comfort ourselves. As you say they have been there for you when other people haven't and that isn't something anyone would want to give up.
I hope you feel better soon. Take care.
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