There's an event in Germany, Spiel Essen, and I've been so excited for it, and so terrified my anxiety will make it a horrible experience. That, and that I'm not getting the place in a mental health residential clinic, and that I'm not getting a more permanent place under the service I'm currently under, and that my best friend is moving away and I'll be alone, and since I've pretty much given up finding help in my city, I'm planning to follow her with no idea what I'm gonna do, where I'll live, how I'll react in a whole new environment... It's feeling like too much.
But I just want to get through next month and enjoy my time with other gamers.
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