hi, yes, I think that I am doing my best to make the sessions productive. I was getting something out of therapy- right now I am just struggling with a lot of intrusive thoughts as well as projecting different feelings onto the therapist. I did feel very judged, and it is weird that regarding attachment it took so long to initially get transferred and it happened so abruptly and now it feels as though I am being abandoned again to fend for myself.
I felt it was necessary to be made to feel uncomfortable rather than settled within the session; it just felt that the critique came suddenly.....I was constantly very aware of the time- we started late. And in telling me repeatedly that weekly attendance is an on-going discussion I felt there was an underlying message- like we were planning for termination- but then being critiqued regarding my eating, and self- harm relapse, and generally evading a topic maybe questioning not needing sessions- I just felt like I was being punished for not being a good client.
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