I'm most likely safe, only because my body can't take enough tablets or cope with physical pain enough to cut deep enough. I need the ability to self destruct. I can't go out in case I try to kill myself and get it wrong and then that will mess up everything further. No one cares because I'm probably safe. No one will offer me immediate help. I'll be in bed soon anyway, just lying there awake into the morning and then I won't get up till the afternoon. Same old crap.
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