I don't know if she can help. I'm so scared. I don't know what they are doing. But my head hurts constantly. I can't do with my head. My brain rarely had headaches and now that either they have change parts of it via my nose or that there's a brain tumour either way I can't cope with it.
I'm finding it very hard to challenge the thoughts. My partner wants me not to work at the moment. But I'm on bank at the moment and doing most shifts with the crisis team. So it's hard. They really like me so I can't cancel on them. It's hard. I've told partner most of it and that I lied and he's more annoyed. I just don't want him to worry and that's him he worrys and keeps asking me questions. It's hard to run away from it as he lives with me. The only peace I get is when I'm not with him. Which is sad.
My head hurts so much I'm not sure what to do. I'm going to die and I've accepted that. But I don't want to die. I want life. I have not lived enough but I need to get it out.
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