I actually wish I was in hospital right now, I'm really struggling and can't phone anyone. I'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow but I don't want to say to him that I think I need to go into hospital for a short time because I'm not entirely unsafe right now and I don't know his beliefs on when I should be admitted to hospital. It would of course have to go through my psychiatrist or a CPN. I just don't want to end up back in the place I was a couple of weeks ago. I worry so much about what other people think about me so I don't know if I feel able to mention this to anyone in case they think I just want to be in hospital for a laugh or something. My psychiatrist said I can go into hospital for 3 days any time I want but I don't know if he really meant that and what my psychologist and CPN think about that. I find it hard to ask for what I need. I don't know if I will find the courage to say anything tomorrow.
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