First of all, your feelings are totally valid. I personally know what it feels like to be spurned by old friends, as I'm sure many people here do, so you're not at all alone. :) I'm sure any one here would be happy to talk to you when you need an ear to listen, me included. I know it's not the same as a real life friend, but sometimes it's important to realize that the people we know in real life take us for granted without even realizing it. Seeing someone every day for 6 years or maybe even more makes one vulnerable to apathy. They expect that same person to always be there, or at least not far off. When you're dealing with people online, continual back and forth communication is a lot more important because you don't see each other on a regular basis or even at all. I don't know if what I'm saying is making any sense! Sorry about that.
About the pills and the self-harm, don't do it. It doesn't help. I know it may be relieving temporarily, but the relief is just that...temporary. You need to find a longterm solution and self-harm definitely isn't the answer. I'm not gonna tell you to find a therapist, but I would advise finding someone in your life who you can trust completely to talk to. If it's not your boyfriend, then somebody else, even a parent. (not to sound lame ;0)
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