Hi,
it sounds like you managed to communicate fairly well to your CPN some of the things that are worrying you, well done. Did he have any advice for your worries about seeing a therapist? I hope that this therapist is helpful for you and that you don't feel pressured. Do you think it would be possible to communicate your worries in the first appointment next week about not being able to talk straight away? Is there anything that has helped you to open up in therapy in the past?
It sounds scary to not know when you are going to have to move out of the THU, but a lot can change in six months. It is important to communicate with people why you feel you are not ready to leave, and maybe you can work with your CPN to think about putting some things in place to make things a little easier for when the time does come for you to move on?
It sounds like you are struggling with a lot of anxiety at the moment. I'm sorry that it has stopped you from doing things that you enjoy although I am glad you are still managing to keep some social time in with the board game group. Do you think you would be able to try something a little different - maybe with this close friend? Is there anything else that might make it easier to go out or to go back to the gym?
I still think it is worth bringing up the anxiety medication with your CPN again, perhaps when you are feeling calmer. Can you explain that you accept that your autism can make things difficult for you but you have been feeling like this is extra anxiety recently and separate from the autism (if that is how you feel)?
How are you feeling today? Is there someone you can speak to if you get strong urges again?
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