Hey, I'm sorry that you're going through such a rough time right now. I don't really know what to tell you about the operation, I guess there really isn't anything you can do about it, but just try to take it easy as much as possible until you do get the operation. Take care of yourself and everything. As for the cutting, I'm sorry that you felt like you had to do that after going so long without it. But just think of it as a little slip-up, it doesn't mean that you have to start your recovery over. If you went so long without cutting, you must have learned some other techniques for dealing with negative feelings, that didn't involve hurting yourself. Can you try to keep using those techniques when you feel bad, rather than cutting? And another thing, you're not too old to do it, as you will see there are a good number of people here who still self-harm who are around your age or older. It's not like your problems stop when you reach adulthood.
Anyway, I hope things get better for you, and that you have your operation as soon as possible. And feel free to keep talking to us here, we're here to help.
