Hello, welcome to the site and thank you for trusting us with your story.
It sounds like there is a lot going through your mind at the moment. It must be difficult for you.
Being a teenager with mental health difficulties is challenging, I know I was one. There are so many different things to contend with normal growing up, teenage angst, mental health difficulties, social difficulties, learning who you are and on and on. The up shot of this, some of what you experience could be "normal" for want of a better word and will pass, the down side is it takes time to figure out what is what. That is not to say that you should not doing anything, it just might take some time and trial and error to figure out what is going on. Mental health is a bit of mind field, its sounds like you have done some reading so I'm sure you have come across many different conditions all with overlapping symptoms. It might take some time to get an answer for what is going on. I have been having mental health issues since I was a teenager and I was about 25 when we finally had a good idea about what was going. That is not to say that I didn't receive some great help before that its just this was then the big picture of what was going on became clear.
I am sorry if you have covered this in your post, I got a bit lost. Aside from your therapist do you have any other support with your mental health? If not do you think you could ask her what your options are now your sessions are coming to an end?
As a teenager and young adult I struggled with know who I was and what my personality was. I never felt like I fitted in anywhere. I wasn't like the kids in school or even uni. It was only once I got into the "real" world and started to associate with like minded people rather than a group of people who's only connection was being born at a similar time and in a similar area that I start to make meaningful connections with people.
With regards to the ear worm thing, I sometimes get that when my anxiety mixes with mood symptoms either high or low mood (I have bipolar). Do you have a GP or similar to talk to, it sounds like it might be helpful to speak to a doctor about some of these concerns to help put your mind at rest about them.
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