Perhaps having some visual reminders would help? I think I remember you saying you had written yourself little notes about going to work and enjoying being around your colleagues, so maybe writing similar things about getting out each day, or even sticking up photos from when you've had a good time being out of the house can help remind you.
Reflecting on the fact that when you do go out nothing bad tends to happen is important too. You're right that if you avoid, that fear will come back 10 times stronger, and so keeping on top of it is really important. I wonder if some sort of system where you could chart what happens when you go out - how you feel, did anything untoward occur, etc and have that as 'evidence' to look at when you're struggling because sometimes having things in black and white can make it harder for you to talk yourself out of it.
You are so, so brave and you have proven time and time again that you can do it. I think whether it's related to a diagnostic label or not isn't the main concern - there are things you struggle with which make it harder for you to do things than people who don't struggle with those things. It doesn't make you less than them but it does show you are incredibly resilient to keep going in the face of really intense fear, which not many people would be able to maintain. A blip doesn't mean things will be difficult forever and you will come through this just as you always do.
I'm just a text away <3
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