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Old 07-12-2007, 01:29 AM   #4
Hollz
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I hate it when I am in work or something, and someone will say 'smile' or 'be happy' - I mean it is not as if I an intentionally trying to look depressed, it is just how I feel and I'm not good at hiding it - even when I feel happy, people still tell me to cheer up.

Anyway, yeah - when someone says things like 'i'm going to go slit my wrists' or ' igonnae walk infront of a bus' in sarcastic tones, because they mock it and think it's funny :(

People have even said sarcastically to me, if you feel that down (because I am not smiling and chirpy) that I should go slit my wists...hardly going to show them, am I :(



Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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