Originally Posted by
Schizonormative
I have a lot of the same trouble. At this point I've been so conditioned to act normal that the second I'm with someone I snap into the facade of being simply tired. I've struggle with the thought that maybe the rest is fake as well and the thought that helped to correct this thinking was "why would I only act when I'm alone if I was just doing it for attention?" Hopefully this helps in some way.
that does help a lot! thank you
sometimes i can make myself think about that bit and it does help, but sometimes i think i'm too determined to prove to myself that it's all made up so i don't feel like i'm broken. i'm gonna try to think a lot more about this though and hopefully i can remind myself about it! :)