Originally Posted by
Epic
Hey, it sounds like you are struggling enormously even if it is not apparent to others. Whilst it may seem useful to be able to "hide" mental health stuff, and to function pretty well on the outside, it places you at huge risk because the pressure has nowhere to go. Also, because you aren't being forced to stop functioning and because others might be dismissive. You might find reading about high-functioning depression, anxiety and psychosis.
The other thing to be mindful of is that symptoms happen for a reason - usually to get us to pay attention to ourselves or our environment so we can make adjustments. If you are very good at clamping down on your symptoms externally, there is huge risk that they'll get ever more weird and severe.
I'd really encourage you to seek support so you can release this pressure safely and care for yourself internally.
thank you! i'll definately look into high functioning things as well. i mean, i definately don't function well, but i can mask it to a point around others at least enough for outward symptoms not to be apparent to them, but i still think maybe that it may be a good idea to look into those anyway
i've given my therapist a list of all the symptoms i experience that i could remember since i don't want to hide around her and hopefully she may be able to help me stop hiding as much since it's probably doing a lot of damage