There is no need to apologise. It doesnt sound like you are dependent and certainly not selfish. It is more than understandable to want more time before christmas. I wonder would it be possible or practical for you to write a letter for her of some sorts before your session on Monday, with everything you have going through your head about going home, then give it to her and she can have a read of it and perhaps you will have time for a chat about it? I'm just thinking that reading a letter would take her less time than it might take for you to say it out loud, so might save some time.
Why do you think you want to go to that place? Might it be triggering for you to the point of perhaps feeling more suicidal? Does that make sense? Sounds like it might potentially make you more vulnerable than you are already.
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