Thank you. That's kind.
I feel I'm nothing. Just a shell. Like the Matthew that people one knew has been scooped out and now I'm just a facade.
I'm struggling with who I am. I don't know any more. This past 11 years has been horrific. Some wonderful things have come of it but I feel more scar tissue than human being. Terrible analogy in a self harm site.
I think often how much better it would be if I just ended it all. Therapist says thoughts like that are my safe place. I don't want that to be a safe place anymore though.
I'm ashamed of what I am
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