It sounds like you really need your depot as you are talking about having strange beliefs (aliens, being poisoned) that I know you don't have when you are feeling well.
Please talk to your psych. You don't know that you would end up IP. In fact I think your psych would find it insightful of you to seek help now. That way you can stay in the community and engage with your CMHT. If you hide away you'll get more unwell until it gets to the point of sectioning and that's never a good idea if you can avoid it!
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