I think the fact that they won't give up is a reason you're supposed to be here. My roommate's mom is an ER nurse and she said other than losing kids, the next hardest thing is losing a suicidal patient, because it's preventable. Take comfort in the fact that you are wanted on this earth and you don't have a choice in it. Someone recently told me I may want to kill myself every day of my life, and that's not necessarily my choice, but staying alive is. It sounds like you can't live for yourself right now, but people love you and need you here. You may be treatment resistant, but never ever worth giving up on.
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