I guess questions to ask would be about the sessions. Like what is the structure of them, how many people are in the group, do you have individual sessions, how long does it last for, how much homework will I get, is there any expectations of me, what do I do if I'm struggling whilst at a session, in what way should it help me.. etc etc.
I think to bear in mind you find a lot of things anxiety provoking. I understand doing stuff in a group is hard especially for such people, and you will definitely not be the only one with anxiety about it being a group.
They quite often have two people to assess people for many things so that they get the best picture of how things are for you, rather than just one persons view of things. It may help to say at the beginning that you are very nervous about the whole assessment. I often say it at assessments because I get very anxious about things too and it just helps to express it and get it off my chest, especially when it will probably come up anyway.
I know you have your views on Mindfulness and those can be hard to shake when it hasn't helped before but try and be as open minded as you can about that. I know I used to find it useless but finding the right type of mindfulness activity and practicing it over and over, it then started to become helpful to me, and I now use when distressed. I think it's about finding the right form of it for you and about picking up the skill of focusing enough for it to have positive impact that can be very hard. Like for me, the forms of it that focus on breathing make me panicky so I avoid them. It's trial and error finding what works.
If you are nervous about taking NHS transport would it help to listen to an mp3 whilst travelling? That way there won't be that awkward silence.
It's hard when you have to go into an area you usually avoid because of bad memories. Try and remind yourself though that you would be going in a much more positive way though.
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