Hi guys, thanks for all the replies, and reassurance, I have been feeling a touch better and calmer about things, and spent the whole day with a friend yesterday, repairing her laptop, something I love, and that gives me a sense of achievement, it's great when I see it working properly for the first time in a long time, now I just have to create a few backup discs for her so she doesn't lose her personal files, I backed them up temporarily on a flash drive, but do need it back, think she's just chuffed that her laptop is finally working :)
I'm also trying to focus on the positives, like my new clothes I've bought for the holiday, plus my new suitcase and luggage straps, I'm looking forward to packing my suitcase, but still dreading the travel and am apprehensive and anxious about the flight, I want my love for flying back, I think I will get it back, but it'll just take time for me to feel safe and happy about flying again, may take a few safe flights before I get that love for flying back. I'm seeing my counsellor Friday, and possibly the nurse with the Community Drug and Alcohol Team, so gonna discuss my current fears about flying with them, see if they have any suggestions on a prn or other ways of staying calm during the flight :)
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