I wouldn't say congrats as if I wasn't so bad i would of never got help. Some people are surprised im doing good some people didn't think I would ever come back. I recall almost stabbing someone one day because i was nodding out on heroin so bad at work. I was forced behind bars to get sober. After bailing out so much like three times in a month, they would just push charges to get me behind bars on a no bond. They would try to fuck with my car too. Legal bills were getting hefty. Would get out spend half the day figuring out how to get back to my caf to just causing mayhem a day later. I was marked. Paid a huge price, im not scared, im scared as in this is the most sober i been in about 18 years.
And im trying to gauge if this is helping or not. Id share at na or aa, day or two later cops would look for me about what i talked about so i quit going cause that too. Its supposed to be anonymous. Im allowed to have feelings im told and to get punished for it.
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