I think there's a difference between unhappiness and depression. You sound genuinely grateful and content for all the good things in your life, but you also acknowledge that depression is stealing your opportunity to fully enjoy those things. On Saturday I went cliff jumping with some of my best friends. It should have been fun, I should have loved it, but I didn't. I couldn't enjoy it no matter how hard i tried to just forget about the depression and have fun. If you're not on medication, I would consider seeing a dr, since it sounds like you're trying to be positive about your life, but your brain isn't allowing you to.
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