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Ash* · 19-07-2016, 10:28 PM

I am 30.
THIRTY.
I started using this website when it was ruin, and used it daily for years. Some of my dearest and best friends are from this website who I credit with saving my life. Hell, strangers from this website saved my life.

Over half of my life has been spent feeling like this, feeling dull, restless, cloudy, heavy.

Over half my life has been spent waiting for some point where it turns off and I become like everyone else.

I will never be like everyone else.

I don't think i'llever physically hurt myself the way I used to (the way I want to) ever again. I still do it, but have it justified so "it's not the same".

It's just hard. I want thirty years old and exhausted.

19-07-2016, 10:28 PM	#1
Ash* Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Liverpool I am currently:	Over half my life, how much more. I am 30. THIRTY. I started using this website when it was ruin, and used it daily for years. Some of my dearest and best friends are from this website who I credit with saving my life. Hell, strangers from this website saved my life. Over half of my life has been spent feeling like this, feeling dull, restless, cloudy, heavy. Over half my life has been spent waiting for some point where it turns off and I become like everyone else. I will never be like everyone else. I don't think i'llever physically hurt myself the way I used to (the way I want to) ever again. I still do it, but have it justified so "it's not the same". It's just hard. I want thirty years old and exhausted.
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