Depression is not something you can snap out of. It is a medical condition that involves chemicals and nerves in the brain.
You are not waste, you are not a bad mom. Being depressed is not a matter of deserving it or not.
As for bothering your OH, does that mean other half? Do you have a sofa or easy chair where you can sleep? I do that when I have a cold, that way when I cough or get up to get something to drink, it doesn't disturb my husband. I miss him when I do that. I usually wake up earlier than he does so when I've spent the night on the sofa, I crawl in with him and snuggle for a bit.
You're not bad. You just have the disease of Clinical Depression.
Hugs.
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