[Solstice]

So I am in the state hospital and yesterday I found something to cut myself with, I won't go into specifics but I ended up needing stitches so they sent me to the hospital for stitches and my therapist went with me. At first they told me I was going to have to get in a hospital gown and pee in a cup and I freaked out because I was going to have to do it in front of male staff and my therapist offered to also get in a hospital gown and pee in a cup with me! And she was actually serious. I mean seriously, how many therapist do you know who would even go to the hospital with you, let alone do those other things for you? On our way back she was like if you ever doubt I care remember I was willing to get in a hospital gown and pee in a cup for you. Then she came to my room this morning first thing to check on me and then went to her morning meeting to hear what they had to say about me to "see who [she] needed to punch in the face and then came back and told me all they really said was I had a rough day, what I used to cut myself and that I needed to go to the hospital for stitches and that I had a doctors appointment today. Then she stayed with me until my psychiatrist came in and told me I wasn't on unit ops and that she wanted me to go to my classes which I was actually really thankful for. I'm back on two to one which sucks but she told me that we will talk tomorrow about changing that so we will see. She said what changes tomorrow depends on how tonight goes so I am going to be extra good tonight. I told her I wanted to pull my stiches out and she told me that would be make the opposite of what I wanted to happen, happen. Rough day yesterday, little bit better today. We will see