Thank you all. You've been really reassuring.
He was a locum so he didn't know me very well, bar the stuff in my notes which he'd probably had a quick scan over. I'd not want to see him again.
I've had patients being a bit upset because they're on a lot of medications. I tell them that I know it's a pain, but if it's keeping them well then it's worth it. I've seen patients on a LOT of medication.
I phoned my manager today because I got in a flap about not being capable or a liability or something. She was so good about it. She said she knows what medication I'm on and that it doesn't concern her. She said she would definitely tell me if she had any concerns about my fitness to work and I believe her because if I mess up, she's still responsible for it. She said that I probably know more about drugs than he does! She says that because I'm honest when I'm struggling, it allows her to put me on admin duties for a few hours until I have calmed down and can focus again, so she wouldn't ever make me dispense if I didn't have the concentration for it.
I was really worried that she would think the same as the GP and that I should stop working there because I might break someone. It was making me really anxious and I was wondering whether she would prefer it if I left, but after she said that, it's reassured me and I feel like I can go into work in the morning and not fret about whether I should be there or not.
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