[Uglyducklin]

I'm sorry to make another thread. I'm just so numb the only thing that breaks through is being fat and body shame I'm numb to everything else. The cord feels like it has been cut the world feels far away . I cried Monday night and have been utterly numb ever since. I'm cutting just to feel and I wish there was nothing left. I don't feel empty I know there are things I should look forward to but I feel dead. I keep wanting to buy pills. The trauma images and flashbacks don't cause me to feel. I'm so scared by my lack of emotion does anyone else get this?