It could be worth acknowledging that there are other options than to OD. Starting something new is often stressful and challenging, and can feel like a change even when you discover that you're actually pretty good at it and are liked by people
It can raise different questions and uncertainties within yourself and it can be tempting to go back to something that feels somewhat safe or familiar.
You don't have to stay with the voluntary work if it's too much at this time, though if you can I would recommend trying to stick with it for a while because these things usually get easier. With the urges to OD, do as you're doing now and keep talking about it. Try using delay tactics for urges and hopefully they'll pass.
It may well be too difficult to imagine being able to work in the future, but that's because you're not ready just now and you don't have to be. Focus on where you're at now, whether that be with the voluntary work and/or with your mental health, and you'll be that bit closer to a brighter future.
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