Thanks for the reply, any reply that is constructive or genuine is appreciated. I know you are pretty to the point with what you say, so it is appreciated :) Thanks.
I totally get what you are saying, my cuts are not superficial though. I currently have one on my arm that I have been working on for three months now (eek, I didn't realise it was that long). I'm about 2 and a half cm into my arm and have lost the use of three of my fingers. They are fully aware of that, and said it was fine. They also said it was ok that my final intention is to cut off my arm. They are just not bothered at all.
If I go to hospital and do that, then they still won't do anything, they will only do something if you try to take your life and fail. And then all they do is put you in a hospital that offers no therapy (seriously), and then release you. I was there for 5 days when I was put on a six month section, a year and a bit ago. They released me because I smiled and didn't look depressed, and when they discharged me, they just caused chaos and made things worse by far. I want some constructive help, maybe DBT (which I can't get in this area), or OP or something (again, what I can't get in this area), not to pick me up, put me here, put me there, then discard me. That's not helpful at ALL.
The other side of this is that I think everyone wants me dead and wants to kill me, predominantly those professionals who have done everything to NOT help me. I need someone not to mock what I'm saying, but to try and help me work around those thoughts. I just want to feel better, that's all.
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