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dont really know where to start.....

i was doing really well.. was stable not harming nothing for 2 months. then it all went to **** and i harmed twice in one week, had a crappy therapy session, lied to her and said i hadnt harmed when i really had

i just feel like i have completly failed at everything... wanting to do bad things. my mind is going a mile a minute and im having alot of halucintaions... im scared of telling therapist whats going on because then she will put off emdr even longer.

i told sissy(my best friend) and sondra (my other friend i met through here but she doesnt come on anymore) i harmed and they were both upset with me

feel like i screw up....

none of this probally makes any sense... might delete..


edit 3/1/16
so ive been scared to tell anyone but last week i started hearing voices telling me to hurt others.... im scared of them adn dont really know what to do...