Sorry I didn't reply. It was just a difficult day. I wanted to self harm badly but managed to resist the urges.
Today has been a bit better. I still have urges to take an overdose and end it but it just confuses me seeing what is right and what will actually help. I have a second opinion about my diagnosis tomorrow. My dad is paying for it it my psych recommended it as she can't see me. I feel like I can't sit still and have excess energy but feel so low. I'm scared of what the doctor will say tomorrow.
I feel I can help people spiritually via telepathic ways to heal them and help them ground them to the universe and be better of in life. I feel that people are onto me and tracking me to use my powers for no good. I want to help people but I know there's way I can damage them so I'm scared. Should I mention this tomorrow?
I don't know. I'm scared that my thoughts are being fiddled with. And that's how they are getting to me.
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