Hi I'm KC,
I have had this problem since I was in college but there was no awareness then, so I didnt actually know it was a thing. I "relapsed" after 14 years of being generally ok. My once seemingly smooth sailing career came to a crash and burn hault and turned me on my head. So I raged out in self loathing and in my moment of clarity immediately sought help, stumbled upon this and am certainly thankful. Although I'm not ready to stop, I am in need and so glad there is someone who can relate to talk to cuz the sympathetic stare I get from my therapist, complete refrain from telling my husband and fear/judgement from the only friend I told makes me queasy.
Phew, anyhoo. Looking forward to hopefully make some nice acquaintances and shed some light on my problem as well as share good tips positivity and wisdom :/
KC