[Karamazing]

I'm in need of advice, but I feel better in this forum compared to the Advice one. It has been a little over 2 months of no SI. And I'm feeling like guilt, and stress, and everything that started my cutting is getting worse. For awhile I felt better, but now I can't control my emotions. Everything makes me feel guilty. I can't even be around my family without a feeling of guilt and disgrace. I can't cry, or I cry too much. And I need that control again. I almost need to pull myself out to feel better. I hate hearing how proud people are. I miss the feeling of being able to just relieve it all. My school shrink was talking about recovery and what I considered recovery was. I said going one day with out thinking about it. I said that because I know it will never happen. I don't want to be in recovery. I only stopped because of a teacher humiliating me. And she did it again, and I need to feel better. I have to, because my dad doesn't understand, take everything that teacher gives to me. I can't be me and do that at the same time. I'm not me right now. I'm going too into detail with what's going on with me right now.

My question is when you slipped up after you said you'd stop, what came next?