I'm just going to copy and paste what I wrote in my r&v. I still plan on calling NSPCC but social services have been notified. I just wanted to bump and update:
“My sister facetimed me.
We chatted for an hour.
I can't tell you the relief of having proper contact with her and a proper chat.
Everything is out in the open now.
I explained to her that I've never talked her to about my mental health before because I wanted to protect her but it's got the point where I feel like it's a disservice to her to not say anything.
She is very receptive and mature, very emotionally aware and generally a strong character despite being 13.
I told her about being in hospital, showed her round my room, told her what it's like here (within reason).
We talked about how she can talk to me any time but maybe having someone impartial to speak to about things would help.
She said she knows more about mental health than I realise, that she talks to her friends about it and they've covered it in school.
I talked to her about childline.
We shared are sadness that we weren't together at Christmas time but that I would see her in a couple of weeks when we go to her granny's house.
I tried to reassure her that I would be Ok, I would be in hospital a couple of weeks and then at the day hospital.
A nice nurse that I know well came in to mention meds when I was facetiming her and Jess said hello to her (she's a lovely nurse who knows me well) and the nurse said Jess seemed very old her for age and very confident.
I said would come up to Newcastle when I could and say said that she would wait to her get ear pierced with me rather than getting it done with her mum.
She was honest and open about her feelings.
It very much felt like I was talking to my sister.
She talked about her friends and the counsellor at school.
She said that the counsellor was good but making the first step was hard which I acknowledged.
She wants someone to talk to regularly so I said I would talk to her mum about it and see what we can do. I don't want money to be an issue in the matter, we'll help pay for it if I can.
I'm sure there are services that can help her, I'll look into it tomorrow.
We were supportive of each other, it was contained, I tried to be honest but not worry her.
We talked about the presents we got.
She's a strong kid and I do my best too.
We listened to each other.
I almost felt like she was safe in my hands. And in her own.
Although I can't stop her having contact with our dad I can support her to make her own decisions.
I made it clear that I'm here to protect her but she is also her own person and needs to make her own decisions.
I love her dearly, and she does too.
She rang me off her own back and was clearly comfortable doing so.
The door has been opened. We said goodnight and she said she would text me tomorrow. She's safe.”
Thanks for the support with this, it's helped x
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