I'm sorry to post again I am reeling from how badly my appointment with my eating disorders nurse went she is usually amazing but so I just must be a terrible fat monster. She said I leak trauma like ink and infect those around me, I live in the past I tried to explain that is what complex PTSD is and she said that trauma therapy helps nobody because it focuses on the past and I am too attached to my mum her words were every time I mention separating from your mum you look like I ripped the head off your teddy bear. I just feel devastated. I really need to hurt myself but I'm trying not too. I'm truly awful as she is brilliant normally.
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