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Incog[nito]. · 06-12-2015, 10:30 PM

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Originally Posted by 192

I have those thoughts, almost verbatim to the examples you gave. Sometimes I can push them away quickly without a lot of fuss; sometimes they can be quite sinister and persistent. I know I dont really want those thoughts to come true but its shocking to know thats in my head. I havent seriously engaged in self harm for almost 8 years yet every time I get stressed or overwhelmed or anxious thats the first place my brain goes. EVERY TIME. Even the "little things" bring it out.
I've been in a dark place recently, I'm not sure how much help I can be. But I know reading your post, knowing there is someone else out there dealing with similar cruel self talk, I dont know why, but it did make me feel slightly better. So thank you for being brave enough to share, and, for what its worth, I hope knowing that you are not the only one brings you some sort of relief.

Thank you for your reply 192...we are in very similar places it seems. I too have been doing "well", haven't self-harmed for...five years (?) I think. I can relate exactly to what you said about even "little things" triggering it and that's what's scary.

I am so scared of being seen as regressing, everyone is so "proud" and "inspired" (words they've used) by me and my recovery and my life, that I feel like admitting I'm struggling is letting people down.

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Incog[nito]. Join Date: Nov 2015	Quote: Originally Posted by 192 I have those thoughts, almost verbatim to the examples you gave. Sometimes I can push them away quickly without a lot of fuss; sometimes they can be quite sinister and persistent. I know I dont really want those thoughts to come true but its shocking to know thats in my head. I havent seriously engaged in self harm for almost 8 years yet every time I get stressed or overwhelmed or anxious thats the first place my brain goes. EVERY TIME. Even the "little things" bring it out. I've been in a dark place recently, I'm not sure how much help I can be. But I know reading your post, knowing there is someone else out there dealing with similar cruel self talk, I dont know why, but it did make me feel slightly better. So thank you for being brave enough to share, and, for what its worth, I hope knowing that you are not the only one brings you some sort of relief. Thank you for your reply 192...we are in very similar places it seems. I too have been doing "well", haven't self-harmed for...five years (?) I think. I can relate exactly to what you said about even "little things" triggering it and that's what's scary. I am so scared of being seen as regressing, everyone is so "proud" and "inspired" (words they've used) by me and my recovery and my life, that I feel like admitting I'm struggling is letting people down. Last edited by Incog[nito]. : 06-12-2015 at 10:36 PM.
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