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blondiebear · 01-12-2007, 05:14 AM

I didn't mean to be confusing. I weigh half again what I should, 150% of what I should weigh. And that weight is nothing an insurance company would like but my nutritionist says it is okay. I'm 5'3" tall. I weigh 240 lbs. Because i'm muscular especially in my legs, 160 wouldn't be a bad weight for me.
My eating disorder is too many carbs, too much sugar. Sugar effects the brain the same way that alcohol does. When I got sober, I started eating ice cream instead, so in some ways i changed addictions.

If things get tough, my husband is home from work. He and Bozo cat are watching a sci-fi movie. I think my (adopted) brother is working tonight, so he will likely phone in the morning when he is on his way home from work. We're not related, we just like each other so well that we decided to adopt each other. His wife is my sister, obviously. My husband is fine with the relationship. My husband is my best friend.

This new round of meds, the wellbutrin especially has caused my hands to shake. I thought it had stopped, but it is coming back some in the afternoons. If this is the price of having the depression eased, i'll live with it. I'll just have to cut out patterns and fabric in the morning when my hands are steady. I'm going to try using a larger crochet hook to make the scarf.

The Elephant Seals near Santa Cruz and near Hearst Castle are awesome!
If I have an animal totem it is the tortoise.
What is your favorite animal?

Please, what is a harmonic?

I'll be good to myself. You be good to yourself too.

01-12-2007, 05:14 AM	#42
blondiebear Bringing back the lost art of Sewing Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: California Confusion I am currently:	I didn't mean to be confusing. I weigh half again what I should, 150% of what I should weigh. And that weight is nothing an insurance company would like but my nutritionist says it is okay. I'm 5'3" tall. I weigh 240 lbs. Because i'm muscular especially in my legs, 160 wouldn't be a bad weight for me. My eating disorder is too many carbs, too much sugar. Sugar effects the brain the same way that alcohol does. When I got sober, I started eating ice cream instead, so in some ways i changed addictions. If things get tough, my husband is home from work. He and Bozo cat are watching a sci-fi movie. I think my (adopted) brother is working tonight, so he will likely phone in the morning when he is on his way home from work. We're not related, we just like each other so well that we decided to adopt each other. His wife is my sister, obviously. My husband is fine with the relationship. My husband is my best friend. This new round of meds, the wellbutrin especially has caused my hands to shake. I thought it had stopped, but it is coming back some in the afternoons. If this is the price of having the depression eased, i'll live with it. I'll just have to cut out patterns and fabric in the morning when my hands are steady. I'm going to try using a larger crochet hook to make the scarf. The Elephant Seals near Santa Cruz and near Hearst Castle are awesome! If I have an animal totem it is the tortoise. What is your favorite animal? Please, what is a harmonic? I'll be good to myself. You be good to yourself too.
	My husband is my best friend. In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.