We did talk about stuff, have been keeping it platonic since the conversation...He was basically freaked out at how quickly our situation turned into an actual relationship, and he can't even handle his own marriage, the sneaking around, etc, hence the remaining just friends. There's more to it, but that's the general idea. Quick question though: He made a comment about how I would be a "great girlfriend," and that if/when I started to date someone, he would be a d*ck towards them. His words exactly: "It wouldn't be out of jealousy, just the fact that he wouldn't be good enough for you." I've talked to 2 male friends about that statement, and they figured it's a crappy one because it implies that no one is good enough for me but him and that I'll never find anyone "good enough." Thoughts?
So, this past Sunday, he played at an open mic as usual, and he tends to get super drunk each week. Well, I had been drinking at a different bar, and we started texting...I of course wanted to have another discussion because I thought about some things after our previous one. I know I shouldn't have attempted it that way or at that time, but I did. In a nutshell, he said some really crappy things to me. He accused me of being dramatic and said we shouldn't be together, yet he really likes me and likes spending time with me.....Jesus, he even gave me a ride back and forth to a job interview last week. Mixed signals all the time. He then proceeded to ignore me because he doesn't like talking about difficult things...
THEN, this is the kicker. I didn't contact him since Sunday; I figured I'd put the ball in his court and let him contact me. Well, around 2:15 Friday morning which is right after bar time here, I get a garbled text from him asking for help. He was absolutely wasted, only kind of knew where he was, and didn't think he could walk home. He happened to be near my place and asked to come over. Of course I was worried b/c it is below freezing at night now, and I didn't want him to get mugged or hurt, etc, so I said sure. He ended up puking multiple times on his way here, could hardly stand, and I had to help him into my place. He took a shower (how he didn't fall over is beyond me), and I let him pass out in my bed and I slept on the couch. (I tried sleeping in my bed, but he snored too much...)
I feel like part of me shouldn't have let him stay over, but there is no way he could have walked home in that condition. So of course, his wife was pissed today, and he came clean - only about last night though. She knows we're "friends," but basically said if he drinks or smokes weed before Thanksgiving, they're done.
He's a goddamn train wreck. I mean, is he using me? My friend thinks he is...He didn't know who else to call, and nothing remotely sexual even happened.
I don't know. I don't know if I should just cut him off; it's difficult because when it's good, it's great, but when it's bad, it's awful. I feel terrible every time he has to leave when we're hanging out, because I like being around him and know nothing will probably come of it...I honestly don't think he'll be able to hold off drinking or smoking until Thanksgiving.
Blah. I hate that I only attract people in relationships/men that are married. It boggles my mind. Sorry this is so long, but thanks for reading...
