You are not lazy. Lazy people do not try their hardest to go to college to educate themselves. Your problems are legitimate. Mental health professionals do not see people who are just lazy, and you're seeing your CPN tomorrow - you wouldn't have that support if they thought you were just a flake. Thought to hurt yourself are hard. Is there a reason behind the thoughts? Or are they the intrusive kind that seem to come from nowhere?
I'm trying to control my breathing and it's helping a bit. I'm going to watch The Apprentice in a minute because watching something a bit mindless can help. I think I might make some Ovaltine. My electric blanket is on and I can wrap up in my duvet. I'd call my Mum, but her talking about how **** I am at everything is what's causing the anxiety.
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