[untoldbattles]

Hey everyone, I hope you guys are doing alright. Anyway, I've been wondering.. Does anyone else ever feel like you can't trust yourself anymore? It's hard to explain but it goes something like this. I feel as if I'm constantly lying to myself. I feel as if my feelings are invalid in a way and I have no reason to feel the way I do. I feel as if none of my feelings are genuine and real at all. It's like I may say that I feel this sort of way, but there's another part of me that tells me that I really don't and I'm just exaggerating everything. I feel as if my actions are not what I really what I intend to do, but I just act accordingly to make my feelings seem valid, to comfort myself and reassure myself that I'm not going insane. I feel as if I'm on a constant search for why I'm feeling the way I do. This has been making me start doubting everything about myself. If one moment I say that I'm down, another moment I could be doing anything to convince myself that I am not feeling down as I have no valid reason to feel such a way, leading to me deeming my feelings as invalid. Has anyone else felt this way before? Sometimes I can't help but think I'm going insane because I keep "rejecting" my feelings.. Don't really know how else to put it out there anymore...