Trusting people takes a lot of time and effort, but I'd highly advise you go back to your therapist, and tell her that you weren't entirely honest, even if you feel you can't tell her everything, maybe you could write it down and give it to her to read, maybe if you include in the note that you are sorry and that you do have some trust issues, that is something she can work on with you specifically, please try not to beat yourself up about cutting, I wouldn't call it a relapse, just a slip up, everybody has a slip up once in a while, also don't feel bad that you lied to your therapist, I'm sure lots of people have lied to their therapists at some time, I know I have in the past, the best thing to learn from this is probably that lying has not helped you, and in fact has probably made you feel worse, it has also probably taught you that you need to work on your trust with your therapist more :) I hope you manage to see your therapist again and manage to be honest with her :) *hugs*
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