I went to my appointment today, and it was the hardest appointment I've ever had to attend, I spoke with the nurse, who has now explained properly why removing my ovaries/a hysterectomy is not an option unlike other previous doctors/nurses, as the cessation of Oestrogen can cause Osteoporosis, meaning even if I was to have it done I'd have to live on HRT to minimise the likelihood of Osteoporosis, meaning I'd still be in just the same position, the only bonus would be no more bleeding, so not really worth the pain and effort. The nurse also had me see a dual diagnosis Substance Abuse - CPN, with the drug and alcohol team and CMHT, after a lengthy discussion I now have a referral for my Mental health with their specialist who specialises in the recognition and treatment of Spectrum disorders, this is something that is really good as nobody has ever taken my mental health seriously. I cried a lot throughout today's session, and discussed things in more detail with my counsellor too than I ever have, despite it being really hard, and me feeling completely exhausted afterwards, I'm really grateful that my counsellor is actually trying to help me and has given me the opportunity to get some real help for my mental health to give me a much better opportunity of being able to stop self medicating with drugs and alcohol.
So now I just have to wait for the dual diagnosis team referral to complete and hopefully with the correct treatment I should be able to start getting more mentally well, but I still can't help feeling a bit happy but at the same time terrified of what is ahead, but am really gonna give this my best shot :)
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