Just wanted to say I can relate sweetie.
When I was about 18 I was so scared of saying the wrong thing that I couldn't speak. If I said the odd word I'd mentally beat myself up oversaying something stupid, and at times I'd self harm over it.
All I can promise to you is it does get better as your confidence and self esteem grow. I cope so much better nowadays and can usually shake off the ruminations of making a fool of myself or something bad happening.
Please be gentle with yourself and nurture yourself, you deserve to be treated nicely xxx
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