Thank you.
My thoughts aren't against anyone. I worry about things like past paper work, bills for example. What if I've made mistakes? I go to the worst outcome. Will it come back to haunt me? I've been told I haven't made mistakes, but I can't help wondering. Even typing this I fear in being tracked. Someone is waiting to catch me out, accuse me of something. I also feel like gravity is pushing us down and everything is too heavy. I worry buildings will collapse etc, which makes me scared for mine and my family's safety. I have to lie down when I feel like this. I worry over past conversations. I worry people think I'm a bad person. I worry about being watched. There are other random things I worry about, but people tell me it's irrational even if it feels so real at the time. I'm in a scary place and I don't know how recover or if there is something to recover from. Perhaps I have every right to worry about these things. I see crisis on Sunday. Spending tomorrow with friends then meeting my dad, so I will be around people and hopefully distracted but it all seems too hard and no escape.
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